fashion friday: self-confidence

Hat: Forever 21

Chambray shirt: Old Navy

Striped shirt: Forever 21

Jeans: Charlotte Russe

Slippers: gift

Kendi once said that she likes to assign an occupation to her outfits. Well, mine today is starving artist. I think my slippers that I was pretending were shoes even though they are really nothing but slippers really adds to it. The hat is what makes the artist thing but really I wore it because Sam was snoring loudly all night because of a cold and I was too tired to wash my hair in the morning.

On a more serious note, the other day a friend of my mom's who hadn't seen me since I was a kid said that I should be a model. She was a very effusive person and I know that was just her way of saying "you're not five years old anymore," but I still wished I could have explained to her how much I don't think I should be a model at all. I don't feel very comfortable when I'm taking these pictures. I have no idea how to pose really. When I edit them later, I cringe and then laugh over the facial expressions I make. Sometimes I feel like I'm totally fooling myself into thinking I dress well enough to blog about. But the whole point of it, for me, is to get over my own self-consciousness and to show myself that my individual style is great, whatever it is. I could wear a burlap sack, and if I felt good in it, then great! This is what I tell myself but I'm not sure I know it yet.

Last Friday, some of my co-workers were talking to me about my blog and specifically fashion Friday and I could feel myself starting to blush horribly. The idea that strangers read this is fine, but the idea that people who actually see me day to day read it kind of makes me embarrassed. Do they think I'm fake and/or trying too hard? Do they chuckle amusedly to themselves that I'm even attempting this? They were actually very nice and they probably don't think any of those things, but even if they did, I don't want to care. I want to feel comfortable with myself all the time.

So I post my outfits each week to teach myself, "You look good because you look like you. And being you is lovely."